Lets see, when I left off last week, I was on my way to meet a friend who wanted to take me out for my birthday (one month after my actual birthday) She actually got a few friends together and all surprised me. It was great! The owner of the restaurant made a sign with my name on it. However, he misspelled it, leaving out the "n" even though someone had spelled my name out for him. It was pretty entertaining. Somehow between the 6 of us, we had 20 margaritas... apparently we all lost track.
The following night, I hung out with a college friend who took a spontaneous road trip out here with another friend to go play in the mountains. It was great to catch up and to meet some new friends. The night also somehow contained a LONG conversation about religion, faith, and belief. It was quite interesting that these two guys, both of which are gay, hold more tightly to Christian beliefs than I do. All of that is in a very peculiar place for me right now though. Questioning, contemplating, rationalizing, etc, etc. Anymore, I feel like it is quite easy for me to reason myself into believing that it is all just a psychological game people play for hope and comfort. I can't deny that the faith I once had definitely got me through some of the roughest times in my life thus far. Believing that there is "something" outside of all this around us who has some control and can change things is a quite comforting thought. Looking at my life, things that I once attributed to be by God's doing, may really all just be an insane amount of coincidences. I really keep going in circles with it all. It also seems that the idea that all existence came together by chance is just ridiculous, especially when considering the intricate details of how nature works together and how one thing feeds off another, working in such a perfect way. Not to mention, I have read studies claiming that the deeper in science someone is, the more apt they are to believe in some sort of god or spiritual realm. I won't get too far into the controversy going through my mind... I will at least say that this is something that I am careful about who I will talk with about it. I know what having faith has done in my life, whether it is real or true or not, and I know what it is doing for many other people. If it is giving someone hope and strength to get through things, why would I want to take that from them or shake them in that belief. While religious beliefs have certainly caused much hurt for a lot of people, it also has caused a whole lot of good.
and moving on...
I took my bike in to have my regular customer/bike shop guy take a look at it. Turns out my bike is something more special than the high regard I hold for it. He not only made quite a deal about how awesome it is, but made his coworkers come look at it. All I really needed was to replace the saddle. I'll eventually need to re-tape the handlebars, but he says I don't really need to do that until I'm wearing through to the steel. After going through quite a few saddles and looking at prices, he eventually picked one up, which he said was pretty nice saddle, looked at the price and asked how I felt about $20-$25 as he pulled the actual price tag off of it. He eventually told me it should have been bout $70. In addition to saving me $50 there, he said he wasn't charging me tax, or for labor... I think I got a little more than the "local discount".
Oh, and what is it with people making a deal about my name? While ringing me up for everything for my bike, he complimented my signature, then told me I have a news reporter's name. I decided not to point out that he probably only made that connection because of a popular comedy in which the news reporter shares my first name.
Somehow I agreed to go on a date with a guy I met online. Supposedly everyone is doing it... I don't think I'm into the whole online dating thing though. So, Friday night, I we went out for drinks. It was an alright night. Made for decent conversation. I have to say any doubt of my lack on interest in the guy was shattered when he said "I'm not really much of a go-getter". I'm sorry, but you're talking to a girl who moved to Colorado because she loves to adventure and getting out in the mountains and is up for anything, and you say that you aren't much of a go-getter, and that you do like to hike, but its rare that you get out. At least he was honest, I guess. Since then, the guy keeps texting me about music. He seems like an alright guy, I just honestly can't say that there was even too much there that has me wanting to hang out with him, even on a level of a simple friendship. He also asked if he could take me out again this week. Fortunately, I was easily able to tell him no, due to the fact that I am leaving town in a few days and am rather busy.
Sometimes I wish I could somehow change the mindset of my roommate. He just tries so hard to be... I don't even know what he is trying to be. The other night he said that if he had to choose one word to describe me he would immediately say "stylish". He has mentioned to me many times that he thinks I am always "trending and hip" without even trying. He also seems to be often trying to match this. How do you tell someone that the issue is that he is trying? He posted a picture on facebook the other day in which he is taking a photo in the bathroom mirror of himself wearing a hand knitted scarf, hat, and glasses, holding a beer from a local microbrewery out in front of him, with the most awkward wink ever. Oh, also making sure to make it quite obvious that he is taking this photo with his smart phone. Knowing his personality/character, I know quite well just how hard he is trying in this photo to look "trendy" in his mind at least... I really want to just tell him to delete the photo and never to do that again, as it is doing more harm than help for him.
For some reason, during the past couple weeks, I have been late to work numerous times. While talking to my manager about this yesterday, I mentioned that I have been having trouble sleeping lately. She then told me that she has a number I can call... basically suggesting counseling. Oh, she also said that if I wanted something to take to help me, they would probably hook me up.
Peculiar happening for the day - after getting settled at the coffee shop, suddenly I feel someone touch my back, and realize that the guy sitting at the table next to me is actually trying to adjust my jacket which is hanging over the back of my chair... I guess it was falling? not really sure. Definitely startled me though.
Oh yes, and my coffee shop crush - more and more small talk. and nothing more than that.
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